Back to Center: 'I want to run away!'

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I want to tell you I really appreciate what you all are doing there at Frontline News. So much of mainstream media these days is SO biased and agenda-driven. I don't get that feeling when I come to your site. But — and here's my problem — every time I read one of your articles, I get an overwhelming feeling of wanting to “unsee” what I've read. I guess it's about me gradually coming to realize that so many things are not as they once seemed in so many areas of life — not just with COVID, which many of us have come to see as having been intentionally engineered — but, lots of things relating to politics, society, health, and so on. The more I look, the more I find out I had very little awareness of the real reality. (I know — it's all so “Matrix,” right?) I want to keep reading your site and learning, but at the same time I want to run away! Does that make any sense?

Yes, it makes complete sense! I really hear you. I have also been on this journey for the past several years — that of peeling back the layers of the “reality” I knew before, and discovering that systems and ideas that seemed normal and healthy to me before have actually been going wrong for a long time. 

It is overwhelming. It's okay to feel that way. 

I know what you mean about wanting to run away or hide when you're confronted with uncomfortable truths. Let's try to understand a bit more about what's going on for you there. What is that feeling of wanting to “unsee” really about for you? Is it resistance to changing the way you understand how the world works? Is it about the personal responsibility that comes with knowledge? Is it fear over coming to understand that there's more going on below the surface than you might have realized before? Is it confusion over what's real and what isn't? Or is it something else?

The next time you feel that feeling, I encourage you to dig into it and try to understand the source. You can do this through writing, in conversation with someone you trust, or whatever helps you see things more clearly. Once you have a better sense of what's going on inside, ask yourself, “How do I want to react to what I'm learning?” and “What do I need in order to be able to do that?" For example, you might want to have a more adaptable mindset as you learn new things, feel more brave, make certain changes in your life based on new understandings, and so on. How could you go about transforming that feeling of wanting to run and hide into something empowering? 

I want to take a moment here to acknowledge you and the hugeness of what you're doing. You are daring to search for truth, and even though it scares you, you're not actually running away. So many people are unable or unwilling to face the prospect of transforming their beliefs and perspectives. They would rather stay comfortably oblivious. But not you! 

Choosing to face and stand in the truth can be incredibly uncomfortable, but with discomfort comes an enormous opportunity for growth. Getting uncomfortable is really the only way to grow. How do you want to expand as a person as you step into these new discoveries about life as you now know it? 

You are not alone, my friend, and you are amazing for looking at things many people do not yet have the courage to face. Ultimately, we always win when we choose the truth. Journey on, and stay strong!

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Previous columns:

• ‘When we heard about the return of COVID, my daughter lost it’
• ‘COVID was a nightmare – not again!'
• ‘My kids are obsessed with screens’
• ‘Why would I want to stay home with my kid?’
• ‘I let myself be talked into a medical procedure I didn’t want'
• ‘I encountered a slew of racist hate messages online’
• ‘I want to take our family’s health back into our own hands'
• ‘Even though things are better with COVID, my friends are still on medication’
• ‘I am “awake” now, but I wasn’t always'
• 'My daughter is worried for her friends who got the COVID shot'
• ‘How can people call themselves Christians and believe these things are okay?’
• ‘I’m alone for the holidays for the very first time'
• ‘What’s a formerly proud American to do these days?'
• ‘How can I extend forgiveness for all the COVID atrocities when it still hurts so much?’
• 'I long to help my daughter connect with God in these times'
• Is it irresponsible to think of having another child in today's world?
• ‘I want my son to have strong male role models’
• ‘Our son has secretly been in the process of gender transition’
• ‘I wonder if the sacrifices I and my fellow soldiers made were worth it’
• ‘I know Scripture approves of 2nd Amendment rights, but the idea leaves me uneasy’
• ‘I was an approval-seeking people-pleaser’
• 'God is a God of justice, right? Where’s my justice?'
• ‘I’ve tried my best to be faithful and live a holy life; now I don’t know what to believe’
• 'Kids gravitate toward honest answers, even when they’re tough answers'
• 'I used to be a pretty positive person, but the world is different now'
• 'Do I have an obligation to say something to my friend who is about to inject her one-year-old?'
• 'How do I respond to wild hatred?'
• ‘All my friends have abandoned me’
• ‘Who am I to build a better world?’
• 'The world does not have to understand or approve of your choices'
• 'I get tired and overwhelmed'
• 'I vacillate between feeling inspired and useless'
• ‘I pity the people creating the lies’
• ‘The anger and hurt feelings are costing you too much’
• ‘People who once treated each other with so much love and kindness are now at odds’
• ‘Struggling with my relationship with God since COVID’
• 'I have lost confidence in our healthcare system, including my own personal doctors'
• 'Can you forgive yourself for the years you couldn’t be there with your daughter?'
• 'My wife is willing to take the sacrifice for her sister and I'm sick to my stomach thinking about it'
• 'I deeply regret taking the vaccine'
• 'Married 39 years and I thought we were on the same page when it came to things that mattered most'
• ‘How do I repair this relationship or accept that I may never see my son again?’
• ‘How can I stop fear from controlling my every thought and ruining my dreams?’
• 'How can I pursue my dream to find the person to marry, when it's so hard to connect with new people because of COVID?'
• 'How can I feel safe these days?'
• Advice column premier: Back to Center

Sarah encourages you to reach out to her with requests for advice! Please send your questions to advice@frontline.news.  Anonymous and secure.

Sarah Perron is a Certified Transformational Life Coach. Her passion is to help people create a powerful vision for their lives, identify and eliminate anything that holds them back, and step into their own unique greatness and mission in the world. She believes deeply in the power of coaching to bring fresh perspectives, ideas, and motivation to anyone who wants to thrive in life. Sarah works with clients one-on-one and in group coaching programs and presents exciting workshops on self-development topics. You can follow her on her YouTube channel Find Your Fire.

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